I am so stupid for giving up such a great life that I already have. Having someone who supported me and the family through my past 10 years plus life. I can never thank him enough. I knew it's wrong, yet I still do it. Don't understand what I am thinking. Although sometimes your temper really stress me up. But the things you have done for me and the boys. I really appreciate it. You settle the kids before I am home, despite work already giving you so much stress. I am truly sorry about this whole thing.

I don't even seems that important to him. Why would I break my family because of this stupid person.

Sometimes I really feels like I want to end everything here and just leave. Will someone just take my life away?

There is many things I always kept to myself where I have no where to vent it out and telling myself, tomorrow is a new day. Everything will be fine by then. 

The impulsive, curiosity and impatient of me will lead me to many trouble in life. I will have to work on these things then life will start getting better.

Breath~

Please don't ignore me forever. I love you. 🥲